Ramblings Of A Mad Witch

the day that i become officially ancient… :’(

y is it sooo close???

things are definitely getting there… i really needs a hug… and y in hades can people not reply unless there is a question mark?

Apparently it doesn’t matter how many times I try to have dreamless nights, Selene is just too damn persistent!!! like omgah! And to make it even more interesting, she’s allowing me to remember those dreams in full detail every single time… not to mention the fact that she’s throwing them at me every night, regardless of the fact that maybe I don’t want to dream that night and be able to wake up extremely well rested. The gods are relentless….

Any ideas on how I cannot dream?

Well it appears in me and Dylan’s drunken state that we decided to cast a small circle at 2 in the morning, and it did not end until around 4:30, lol. Here’s what happened in this circle…

We laid out the crystals we were using to form the circle… and insto-presto our intoxication ceased to exist. We then lit our offering and lit each others god candles, his being Iacchus, mine being Selene. The second we asked them in we could feel their presence (this is usually how it is for us). We then joined hands and began to share our energies. We focused on allowing him to see what it is that he needed to see. He shook for a while and began to speak nonsensical words in a hushed tone. When he was able to speak again i told him that he needed to embrace the energy that i was giving him, and i was giving him massive tons, lol. Only in no way did i feel depleated of energy, weird, lol. I also kept getting the residual effect of my energy that he was having a hard time absorbing. He began to describe to me in full detail things about my past life that I haven’t told him before, things i didnt feel were important, that i never mentioned. He mentioned Zeus and Artemis which i felt particularly interesting, especially given what he told me about them in the circle. He also said that in my past life it took me no effort to call on the elements before they would respond, so we found ourselves doing a little experiment. He had me call on the elements in circle and focus them coming to were our hands met, and they did, he also had me take the elements to around us, around the crystals, and around the circle itself and then slowly back inwards, and low and behold it worked. We also unnexpectedly joined our energies together which was particularly interesting when we decided to make energy balls and found that it was not strictly our own energy in our hands. Our energy balls were a combination of my lunar energy and his electric energy, and when one of us tried to expand an energy ball, the other had an immediate need to do the same, and it almost felt as if magnets were in play. Another thing interesting, when we went to absorb them, we found that we couldn’t and the only way we could dissipate the energy was to put our hands together once again. After closing circle, our drunkeness came back full force, which we both decided was extremely odd?

Why is it, that any time i try n go to that stupid church to keep the peace in the family, something happens that i can’t go… and its only if i attempt going on my own… y is that??? do the Gods really want me and the inlaws to fight that bad? like seriously… last time i wrecked my car into a building that had to be torn down (and i came out with only a concussion… the docs dont know how im even alive) and this time my car is like… nope, screw you, im feeling lazy today GAH

Well they got their wish and the old gizzard grandmother is throwing a bitch fit… is this ever going to end???

For years I’ve been searching for a magic name, and it came to me on the 26th. And it was literally like a fist to the face, like I should have known it all my life, and the Gods were pissed cuz I was so oblivious to that fact that it’s been there all along.

As soon as I heard the name spoken on my breath I knew it was right, it was my true name. But along with it came confusion; mainly because it sounded familiar, but I could not place it, so I googled it… The name I was given by the Gods was the name of a Titan and Goddess of the Moon itself, Selene.